Being jobless sucks but not as bad as I thought

My contract with WB ended on Oct 31st. I remember it clearly, even though I knew it was coming and did my best to prepare for it, it still hit me pretty hard. I didn't quite freak out but it was close. I have always been defined by what I do and how I do it, so being jobless made me feel really worthless. I know that is pretty bad because there are more things to life then being a recovering workaholic, but that thought didn't make me any feel better. Luckily I have been preoccuppied with being in love with Bill, otherwise I think I might have gone slighlty crazy. I'm not suprised that I can't find a job, but I'm a little worried because for my whole life jobs have pretty much fallen in my lap and this time it hasn't.

I have never taken a vacation between new jobs, so this time I made up my mind that I would take a much needed vacation after my contract ended. I figured I would start seriously looking for a job at the beginning of the year. I made up my mind that I would put being jobless of out my mind for the 2 months before the new year. So far I have been pretty successful and have really enjoyed my time off and spending it with Bill. Since my last day in Oct, we have stayed at Disney for 2 weeks, went to Laughlin, Sedona and back to Disney. So even though I'm jobless, which sucks and I've let it come into my thoughts a few times in the last couple of months, I've really enjoyed the downtime and spending it with Bill. If I'm not careful I could get used to this, because being jobless isn't as bad as I thought it would be.

I have a good excuse, really I do

I know, I haven't updated my blog in more than 2 months, but I have a good excuse, really I do. It's not that me and Woodstock haven't had some excellent adventures, cuz we have. It's just that something totally unexpected happened to me in Oct. I fell in love... My life has taken a different path that I did not think was possible just 3 short months ago. I lived by myself for over 20 years and I liked it that way. I was free to do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. I never wanted to, or thought of the possibility of getting married.

Well, my life has changed drastically and I can't believe I'm saying this, but I love my life even better now. I now have someone that I can share my life with and we can still do whatever we want whenever we want. Me and Bill got engaged Thanksgiving week and just set the wedding date for Oct 24th 2010. Wow, Love is a wonderful thing which I knew but somehow forgot about. Thanks Bill for reminding me that life without love is not worth living.